it was not a good response, and i don’t think anyone should have any response this to the salvation that we received through grace alone.
while rushing and eating lunch in chicago to head back to northbrook to do more studying, an older cousin came and asked if i were to attend this visitor pastor’s salvation class. she had the most pure sincere concern when she asked this question, “are you saved yet?.. like not just being a good person, i know you are a good person.”
immediately i was offended. my stomach stop digesting and my hand stopped grabbing foods. i thought of several reasons why it would have ticked me off… it was either because of her not knowing me well or just angry because this question does not even cross my mind anymore.
1. you are like my second cousin, and don’t you know me?
2. what kind of question is that?
3. come on, i am even going to seminary school….?
4. how could you ask this to a person who is praying for your family for your salvation?
(well, she actually didn’t know what i am up to these days)
but i really don’t think any of those answers were correct. they were boiling up in my head, and i had to restrain myself from speaking them out loud. sigh…
salvation – the one thing that a Christian can never get on his own merits. how can one possibly response that with such a hostile heart as if he gained it on his own or that it is his work?
how can one not be thankful in gaining it and be humble at the foot of the cross?
how can one not want to share that joy to the whole wide world as the most precious treasure on earth?
how can one possibly be so prideful about being saved and wear salvation around his neck as if it is his own swag?
i thought about this on my way back from chicago… and thinking about how our world would be so different if Christians would take pride in the cross, but not be boastful about being saved as if we are better than others. then we would have loved to share the love of Christ with true genuine hearts. i truly do believe that.
it is never about how we serve God in the church, not about how many prayers we pray, not about how many souls we saved — still those things never add up to it. those things still don’t give us passes from being thankful and humble for the joy of salvation that only comes from Christ.
Gospel is the truth and it was/is never wrong, it is the sinners (even after being saved) like us who tinted it. (praise God, He still forgives and uses us.)
if anyone would come ask me again whether i am saved or not…. i want to response it with a thankful heart that it is by grace that i have been saved, through faith – and this not from myself, it is the gift of God – not by works, so that i cannot boast. (not trying to add or subtract words from Ephesians 2:8-9, but just the way i would think of it)
from one of my favorite CS Lewis’ book “Mere Christianity”,
Whenever we find that our religious life is making us feel that we are good —above all, that we are better than someone else — I think we can be sure that we are being acted on, not by God, but by the devil. The real test of being in the presence of God is that you either forget about yourself altogether or see yourself as a small, dirty object. It is better to forget about yourself altogether.