there is this word game called Ruzzle, which is like scramble and I started playing it about 5 days ago. I grew up playing scrabble and I know I’m good at forming random words. I started playing, and wasn’t surprised by the fact that I kept winning in almost every game, to my friends and to random opponents. it made me just feel like a boss. (not boasting about me here, just my sinful natures and my weaknesses.)
I was teaching an old friend how to play it better, so I thought I was being productive. but most of the time, I ended up playing with the same people again and again until they could beat me…. but no, I wouldn’t let myself lose. so, I kept on accepting people’s challenges, I played more and more. hahha what can I say?… i love winning and being the champs improving myself one game after another with higher scores. i just like telling myself that i know i can do it! sigh.
I thought about it again thoroughly last night that this might have become ‘unhealthy’ for myself and others. just the fact that I kept winning doesn’t mean I should continue playing. just the fact that people sending me challenges doesn’t mean I should accept them. I know it bothers them that they are losing, and why should I take pleasure in it repeatedly? what does one get out of this little competition? it’s not even that much fun for me anymore because how I was going about it didn’t seem right.
so I deleted the app last night.
I will not go back to it until I have the mindset of playing to glorify God through this – and still don’t know what that means.
It was to download it again when I got a flat tire and stranded at liquid fusion parking lot….. glad I did not do it! so easy for me to find ways to justify myself over and over again. I bet the friends/random opponents are wondering why I am not on playing, but eh.. it’s for their own good and mine too.
I will be back on it when my heart is right sometime later. I always need time like to reflect and pray about on new things that I seem to be attracted of very easily.
from the small little thing like this to the biggest things: our freedom in Christ glorify God most when we learn to limit its limitlessness for the sake of others and for our eternal souls.
Apostle Paul knew and he surely told us to fight for that kind of heart.
“Everything is permissible”–but not everything is beneficial.
“Everything is permissible”–but not everything is constructive.
Nobody should seek his own good, but the good of others. – 1 Cor 10:23-24
still learning and praying for wisdom. i am a noob.