Disqualified – Gk. adokimos, “not approved, not standing the test”
i’ve been going over 1 Corinthians for Qt’s, and when it gets to about chapter 7 (marriage), i was like ‘not my concern right now!’ haha.. so i read the whole chapter so that i could find something more applicable with my life right now.
chapter 8 didn’t do much either… mostly because i really don’t care about how i could be edifying to others when i barely see people these days anyways. it’s a good chapter though.
chapter 9… it reminded me with my convictions in the past when i was passionate for God’s kingdom. it was about winning as many as i can. but nothing like that in my head at the moment. i don’t want to be the weak to win the weak, and i just don’t want to do anything for the sake of sharing the blessings.
my concern is more on running my own race, organized by and rewarded by my own self. this is what Apostle Paul would say ‘they do it to get a crown that will not last’. yup, that’s the only crown that has been on my mind.
i have been running the wrong race for the wrong crown. i may eventually be disqualified for the glorious race and the precious crown that will lasts forever.
as the Word goes deeper into my head and heart -//-
oh heck naw!!!! i don’t want to be ‘disqualified for the prize after preaching it to others’. i do want to run aimlessly like a fool. i will go into this strict training again. Paul knew how things could turn out for the real saint like him who had all the rights to become an apostle, even him, he trains himself as making his body as his slave rhetorically… with real spiritual discipline enduring physical and emotional hardships.
i may be disqualified for a lot of things on this earth like right now… maybe not standing the academic tests, maybe not getting approval from friends, family or med schools, but i really really do not want to be ‘not approved, not standing the test’ when i see my Lord Jesus Christ one day face to face. the end of my life, that will be all that matters.
the spiritual battle is real. life is real. and most of all, God is real.
Isaiah 40:31 but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. they will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
to run the race, which i had been qualified by the blood of Christ,
to run the race, which i am being renewed every single moment by the Holy Spirit,
to run the race, which i will be given a crown that lasts forever by my Lord, my God,
i am all in [again].