i have been thinking about this for two weeks now. the event took place when some guests came over to our house and took my car key by accident. who does that???!!
after they had left the house, i came upstairs with all my gears to hit the gym, but the car key was nowhere to be found. looking everywhere and not finding it afterwards, i called those guests hoping that they had it. and yes they did.
it was a little frustrating for me not being able to go with my original plan. no, i was not mad at their silly behavior or my misfortune. it was just simply like ‘my plan is ruined and no other way for me to get to the gym’…..
i looked at myself with the gym clothes, reflected on the commitment that i had made about working out, and then i realized this was really then or never. if i decided to just not go because of these circumstances, i would not be in the gym and i would maybe change my clothes back… probably lying on bed thinking about the guests who took the key. maybe i would curse on them a bit for taking the key. i might probably laugh at my life and end up sitting on the chair with the head down….
i saw the vision for the path that i would be taking. and that road lead nothing but self-destruction, self-infliction, and self-pity.
like when do i stop walking down that path again? i could say just oh just this one time, but this one time could lead to another (perhaps catalyzes to make it even easier). my train of thought going crazy. choooo-chooo!
i grabbed my gym bag. i sought for the bike key. i put my game face on – for i knew that one step onto my garage (where the bike is) could change at least the next 2 hours of my life. well if i give the account to all my physiological (muscles, kidneys, heart rates, endocrines, hypothalamus) components, it could affect it well until the next morning. wait.. it actually affected me to this day that is why i am writing it, which means, 2 weeks already. when i read this post again, it will affect me again to that very day. thinking about it, it is just crazzzy.
i don’t like running, so i usually run 2 miles with maximum efforts (some sprints) and just drop it like a boss. but for some reasons, biking to the gym must have been what i needed to get to 3 miles that day. just to run that extra mile, yes i did go through all those troubles. but the joy of accomplishing that extra mile was nothing compare to the trouble. i was even thankful for them. things happen for a reason, and yes i believe, it is through the Creator.
if it then our choice to choose to be thankful and make ourselves stronger or to blame on the circumstances (thus God indirectly). if i truly believe that God knows what He is doing and that He works for my good, then i should also perform what is good and what is noble as my worship to Him.
Romans 5:2 …and we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. and hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, who He has given us.
in the exact words of Pastor Min –
Suffering produces perseverance
Suffering means pressing us down, like crushing olives to extract oil. God is pressing us to extract Christ-likeness out of us. There is already the seed of Jesus in us, to come out and become our character. God uses suffering and therefore we can rejoice, that is the intent of God. His presence presses us because He loves us too much to make us simply feel comfortable in our sinfulness. WE are uncomfortable in our sinfulness to become more like Christ.
In the midst, we need to persevere. Suffering does not always create perseverance. We don’t automatically become a persevering person because some people quit or become bitter, angry, etc. Their minds are so simplistic. They think we suffer because God doesn’t like us. This is not a universal experience, however if you persevere (staying under, steadfastness, endurance) Christ-likeness will be pressed out. That nature is going to give birth and grow through hardships with the power of God.
hah. gotta use every circumstance to grow. i fought my temptations today, and i really don’t know about tomorrow. but i know that today has made me stronger to face tomorrow. through Him, in Him, and for Him.