one of my favorite movies of all time is Matrix especially the first one of the saga, where Neo gotta find himself regardless what the Oracle or Morpheus believe what he is going to become. i guess i just like it because i am still finding who i am, what values/beliefs i hold on to, or who i am going to become etc.
compared to my post in May 14 <http://dosanaa.wordpress.com/2012/05/14/i-am-scared/>, which was written by me being afraid and trembling, i am not afraid anymore. why?
the most epic Matrix scene was the part where Neo came back alive and stop the bullets from the Agents. before that scene, we could see a small picture of faith. when his heartbeats stopped, trinity, with all assurance, said, “Neo, I’m not afraid anymore. The Oracle told me that I would fall in love and that man… the man that I loved would be The One. So you see, you can’t be dead. You can’t be… because I love you. You hear me? I love you.”
/you see, i am not afraid anymore. the Word told me that i would fall in love that Man (because God has chosen me to) the man that loves me would be the One on the cross. so you see, my God will not leave me or forsake me. He just cannot… He does not leave a man hanging on the Cross, He resurrects and shares His glory. because He loves me so much that He himself dies on the Cross. He hears me. i love Him./
this past early summer, a lot of things happened the way i never saw them coming, and i still don’t know how i got myself into that place. i somehow knew the life circumstances were going to be really difficult after writing that post. but- in the midst of hardships, God provided so many ways out so that i could see more and more of Him. in the midst of the desert, the Spirit grew me up and showed me His desires were better than mine. in the midst of trials, He stood up and fought for me.
Romans 8:38-39 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
then what could a Christian probably should be afraid of? that would be the day i turn my face away from His holiness. it was not that God left king David for his sins that king David wrote, ‘restore unto me the joy of thy salvation’. it was because David turned himself away from God and he needed God’s restoration to know God’s unfailing love. the Christian life is full of freedom as Moses mentioned in the book of Deutronomy. He was giving his last words to the Israelite before they went into the promise land – ‘see, I am setting before you today a blessing and a curse—the blessing if you obey the commands of the Lord your God that I am giving you today;the curse if you disobey the commands of the Lord your God and turn from the way that I command you today by following other gods, which you have not known’ (Deut 11:26-27).
as long as i seek His face, i will be fine. i will learn to choose the blessing and not the
curse. then i will rise. use me, oh Lord!
Deutronomy 31:6 be strong and courageous. do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.