recently, i have been asking myself a question ‘is it worth it?‘
the scenario is something like… i make a friend. i invest my time. we have a great fellowship. we are cool. i was trying to help his faith grow a bit. we became good friends. but the next thing i know, the friend will not be around me so much anymore. the simple question for me is ‘was everything worth it?’
this is definitely not the first time i thought about it or encountered such a situation.
you meet someone, you talk to him/her and have a great blessing time. then you never talk again.
you invest your time on someone for years, but because of one circumstance, the person doesn’t want to even speak to you anymore.
you go to another location, you had great times with some people, but in the end of the month, you have to depart different ways.
whether the end result are in good terms or bad terms, the final question remains ‘was it all worth it?’
i feel like that is a selfish question to ask myself. the question that i wanted to consume myself is ‘did i try my best to be a blessing at the time?’ if i really care about the other person, it wouldn’t have to be about me. was it worth it for the other person? was i enough blessing for the person? through me, could he/she be able to see Christ’s love? there should definitely be a reason why God puts someone in your life in a specific time and reason, and were you following God’s will for the him/her at the time? as much as i would have wanted to, it’s so hard to be burning in spiritual fervor everyday putting others before myself.
something that comes to my mind is being a stepping-stone. as someone encounters me in one point of his/her life, can i be used to direct them to Christ? like something that they can step and then be a step closer to my King. as Jesus being the cornerstone and the foundation for us, can i at least do that for His glory? if Jesus truly is my foundation, then i have nothing else to live for/desire of other than His glory.
i really like Chris Tomlin’s song ‘Lord, I need You’ – it says ‘when i cannot stand, i will fall on You’ because it pictures this verse from Isaiah. with all my selfish desires, i know it is very difficult for me for me to accept the fact that i am just the stepping-stone for the people around me in this passing world.
Isaiah28:16 So this is what the Sovereign LORD says:
“See, I lay a stone in Zion, a tested stone,
a precious cornerstone for a sure foundation;
the one who relies on it
will never be stricken with panic.
I have my Cornerstone already Whom I can rely on anytime i fall. He has come to earth simply to serve me and work for my good. Romans 8:28, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. can you imagine that??!?!!? the very Creator of the universe works for me!! not only that, it is my good that He works for. just to even say out loud that God works for me, it gives me chills.
1 Peter 2:4-5 As you come to him, the living Stone—rejected by men but chosen by God and precious to him— you also, like living stones, are being built into a spiritual house to be a holy priesthood, offering spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.
for these reasons, i want to be a stepping-stone, which is like an image-bearer of Jesus, the Cornerstone.
when Jesus is the huge solid concrete rock that fills up heaven and earth, i would love to be a tiny grain of sand that can show a glimpse of His glory.
yes, everything (relationships and friendships) is worth it compared to the relationship that God has provided for me in Christ. i will pray to the Holy Spirit so that i can find my strength in Him to display His likeness in me daily.